Interviews

So I went on my second interview today for a school that I really like.  The past year and few months has been quite a roller coaster, to say the least.  And I've hit hard times, within the time, over and over again.  I feel like I might actually be close to getting on my feet, not just professionally but also personally.  Hard times seem to make you develop bad habits, not like addictions (but that's possible), but just a self-deprivation and self-doubt kind of thing.  I won't lie, I've struggled with it a lot lately... but I honestly think that I may finally be overcoming it.

I find it hard, often, to see things in increments instead of the grand picture.  And I think I get overwhelmed because of it... and then I kind of give up in a way.  It's a hard cycle to break but it's possible to do so.  I think the hardest thing to do is to admit when you've lost control and when you need to ask for help, even if it's just in terms of gaining your mental strength back.

I'm really hoping this interview turns into a job, but you know what?  If it doesn't, I think I'll be okay.  I'll keep prevailing.  I can do this.  YOU can do this.  We all have our battles.  And quite frankly, if it weren't for friends and family, I don't know how I'd get through these things.  Which leads me to instantly acknowledge the fact that because I have the network I have, I can pretty much get through anything.  And the same goes for you.

May we all find strength when we need it.  And if we can't find it in ourselves, may we have the gift of briefly relying on our friends and family.  Though I will say this as a final statement:  I think today... I have finally learned that it comes from within.  And I've sought after it through every other outlet until now.  But we all have the power.  XOXO