Beside myself

So... in the past (less than) a week, I have secured a teaching job, a tutoring job, had dinner with my parents, got my car fixed and am about to Zumba for the first time.

After too many months of struggles and trials and tribulations, life seems to be coming together.  I have officially reconnected with my two most wonderfulest girlfriends to boot.  I guess over the past many months I have easily felt consistently down, primarily because it felt like life's obstacles were neverending.... but, as always, they have ceased to control me.  I now have my whole family back into good graces (which is an amazing blessing) and I have developed a control of my life and weaknesses that I haven't had in quite some time.  I feel amazing today.

We've all been here:  in a spot that makes us feel like things are so very far from coming together... and where life feels like it has all control and things are out of reach.  But I will tell you, after feeling it myself, I can assure you that if you feel this way now - well, it won't be forever.  Getting healthy, making the right changes, and making sure that you do what you need to do to ensure your support network maintains confidence in your ability to get better... well, that's when things will turn around.

But it's also not that simple.  Climbing out of a rut is not going to be a successful endeavor unless YOU do what YOU need to do; whether it's learning to be a positive thinker again, give up bad habits, regain faith, or learn to accept personal accountability... and it could be several or all of these things... regardless, it's in our power to do so.  And I want to take a second to give a shout out to my support group: my roommate, my boyfriend, my sisters, my family, my girlfriends, and everyone else who has acted as one or the pair of crutches that I've needed over the past year.  I love you guys.  I will forever be grateful for the support and the love that you've provided me with.  Yes, I would eventually have done it on my own, but I'm eternally grateful to have had your help along the way to speed up the process.  And in thanks, I shall continue to give you my unconditional love and admiration, as well as my pledge to do all in my power to further promote a healthy and successful growth, professionally and personally.

After all, without love from those who are most important to you, what do we really have?  DO NOT TAKE THOSE WHO LOVE YOU FOR GRANTED FOR THEY ARE THE ONES WHO WILL CARRY YOU THROUGH THE WATERS WHEN YOU CANNOT WALK THROUGH IT YOURSELF.

I love you all.  For this and for many, many reasons: thank you - incessantly.

Best love always,
LLM